busy busy

Ok so we had a super hectic but fun C-mas. We had like 5 hundred of them lol. Well in teh midst of C-mas we found a house to rent. Let me just say its not the nicest house but we juat cant afford much with me not working. So it is in Robinson again not my top choise but thats where Brent is from. Its a 3 bed 1 bath house not very big at all and the outside looks horrible but it will just have to do for now, we were going nuts living with my mom. We have alot of work to do to it before we move in. I am a little bit unsure of it but I know it will be fine. There are people who have a lot worse. I think when we get all of our stuff in it will feel like home.

The boys are sick again of course. this exact time last year Hunter spent 5 days in the hospital with rsv and pnumonia. He looks terible right now and he has pink eye in both eyes. So we will go to the doc first thing in the morning to have it looked at.

well thats about all we have been doing. I feel like I havent stopped for a week straight now

only 7 more days till C-mas

Wow only 7 days till Christmas. Its gone by so fast. I have most of my shopping done jsut a few more stocking stuffers to get. I love Christmas time but I also am ready for it to be over bc everything is so hectic, and my kids will not leave the tree alone and all the presents are ripped and all the bows are off. I am so ready to put that dang tree back up. I am ready for them to open all their presents though. We have 4 Christmas'. We will get up and do ours with my mom on c-mas morning and then we will go to Brents parents that afternoon and then my dad's the day after. The next weekend we will go to Brents real mom's in Dallas and do theirs. So we have alot to do and we are all gonna be so worn out. I really hope to find a house soon bc there are alot of their presents that I will not open until we move. Well thats about all we have going on for now

Life is good

Ok so I think that my life is finally starting to fall back into place. I have made up with my inlaws and it really does feel great. We have had really tough times over the past 3 yrs and I hate it so we made a pact to always be honest with each other and let the other person know if we are mad or upset instead of just assuming the other person is mad. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted of my shoulders. I prayed to God all the time to help me find te strength to forgive and forget and to please help this family get back together. We will be together for the 1st time in 4 months tomorrow and I really am excited and feel like this is gonna be ok this time. I said I would give my all and hoped they would do the same. I have also gotten pretty close to Brents real mom in Dallas. Brent was never close to her as a kid for reasons I dont know and it does not matter bc she has really tried over the last 3 yrs to be a part of our lives, so I am starting to feel like a part of the family now. I know that families sometimes just dont get along but I really dont want that to be us and let petty little things get in the way. We only have one life and I dont want to spend it having grudges or hatred towards anyone. Me and Brent have not been as close through all this and I saw his face the other day when I talked to my inlaws and his face just lit up. I know this has been so hard on him and all Brent wants for anyone is for them to be happy. He has a huge heart and he does not like for people to fight at all. So anyways I feel like things are going to be ok and I am the happiest I have been in a long time. So I thank God for helping me find my way

oh the Holidays

Ok so I think we are all well now but this has really been a hectic month for me! Ty is deff. showing me what terrible 2's is really about. He has been disobeying at every chance he gets, timeout no longer works for him. So we are going to move out of my moms at the end of jan. and I think I may get a job bc I really think that Ty needs that structure. Everyday changes for us nothing is ever the same from day to day and I think he needs it to be. We are going to wait till then to see if that is my final decision. They have both been acting out since we have been staying here with my mom. I think they sense that I am stressed out and ready to have my own home again. I had everything so babyproof at our old house and here I cant do that bc my mom wont let me, which I totally understand, but it makes it hard for me bc this house is alot bigger and there is alot more to get into. I hope this all blows over when we get a new house and I can continue to stay at home with my kiddos but if not I know that it will be ok.

Not feeling better

So I thought we were all over this stuff but I am thinking we are not. Ty has been feeling sick again Hunter has been crying 24/7 for the past 3 days and I feel like maybe i am getting the flu. This has been a horrible past 2 weeks. And of course none of us has had a flu shot. I hessitated this year bc the doc wasnt sure if the flu shout still had mercury or not. and I am really wierd about that kind of stuff. So man if we get it we are going to be some sick people :( I am always so excited to put C-mas decor up but I have not felt well enough to do anything. I hate,hate,hate this crap. Well wish us luck that this is just a cold or something